So i had my Uni orientation day today and throughout the proceeding met some pretty interesting people.
We chatted about our goals and our lives and all the while i was having a raging argument within myself weather or not to come out to these people...
Mind you i am attending a CATHOLIC University which have no LGBT groups to speak so I’m not too sure how it would all go down.
Not that you have to be a Catholic to attend this school, and they even pride themselves on their diversity but I’m still a bit iffy about the whole situation.
I mean eventually i will have to come out, this girl even asked me today what my 'type' was, and i will shamefully admit that the only thing i could manage was that i liked long hair.... that’s not even a coherent answer... i got handed the biggest opportunity to slip it in and was so scared i couldn’t even answer the question properly!
I’m starting to think that maybe there are deeper lying issues than just what my 'peers' will think of me and maybe i need to become more comfortable with the fact myself before I’m ready to admit this to others.
Just wish i could be stronger and louder and prouder, I kind of feel like a total failure as a lesbian!
Maybe if there was some support for people in my situation it wouldn’t be so difficult, i was even thinking about approaching someone about forming a LGBT or even a GSA group but i don’t think that’s on the cards for me anytime soon.
Let’s just say I’m easing into my new role as a lesbian and that when the time is right i will make it known to others... and maybe I’ll let them get to know me as a person first rather than sticking a massive label on my forehead on the first day of Uni!
What do you think i should do? Would love your opinions!
Till next time... STAY GOLDEN!
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